winning without sacrifice is no victory.

1 wk in sispec has passed so quickly.
in juliet coy.
and it rocks.
haha. fantastic.
esp aft jian feng told me abt sispec delta.
wahahaha.

hmm anyway im really going crazy.
like really damn damn bored at home.
oh well..
its sort of like transiting between home and camp only.
hopefully i will be going out tomorrow. sigh.
it kinda sucks like looking forward to bookout.
then end up staying at home only.
(and no its not anyone's fault!
im just emoing.)

theres really some things i really really want to do.
(1) eat at manhattan fish market/fish n co.
(2) go vivocity to shop
(3) get polo tees

oh and i got owned for MAS.
got rejected aft interview.
but oh well. whats new.
not as if i din expect it.

hello ppl guess what.
i rushed to doc's last night cos i sudd had shortness of breath.
and the stupid shortness of breath,lethargy that
has buggin me for the last 5 weeks or so.
effectively preventing me from being my normal self.
has hopefully been solved.
my usual family doctor couldnt help. LOL.
yeah. and its asthma.
which is qt weird cos i nvr had asthma.
a big LOL.

anyway back to reality yeah.. haha

School Of Infantry Specialists here we come,
Soldiers of every creed and race...
Soldiers to Specialists we will become,
Leader of six men will set the pace..
(how abt leader with six packs? =P
and further on, one big united nations..
hurhurhur)

Sispec Warriors, we are the Warriors..
Sispec Warriors, With Pride we will Lead...
Fearlessly we lead with pride,
Train hard full of might,
Train to lead by day and night,
We will strive for greater heights....
(like for OCS crossover!!)

I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces.
My Duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome.
I lead my men by example.
I answer for their training morale and discipline.
I must excel in everything I do.
I serve with pride, honour and integrity.
I will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination.
I dedicate my life to Singapore.

how inspiring it is.
and it just plain sucks to know that.
i might never be able to recite the above.
lol.
resignation.

perhaps some ppl want to be officers
bcos of the prestige of the rank.
well. i would just be proud to say i made it through.
LOL.
and unfortunately, i dont even get the experience.
hohoho.
and even if i do get a commander's experience,
wont be that of a 2nd class citizen?

im deeply amused.

direct copy and paste.
(from scott.)

why men are happier.

What do you expect from such simple
creatures? Your last name stays put.
The garage is all yours. Wedding plans
take care of themselves. Chocolate is
just another snack. You can be
President. You can never be pregnant.
You can wear a white T-shirt to a
water park. You can wear NO shirt to a
water park. Car mechanics tell you the
truth. The world is your urinal. You
never have to drive to another gas
station restroom because this one is
just too icky. You don't have to stop
and think of which way to turn a nut
on a
bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles
add character. Wedding dress $5000.
Tux rental-$100. People never stare at
your chest when you're talking to
them. The occasional well-rendered
belch is practically expected. New
shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle
your feet. One mood all the time.

Phone conversations are over in 30
seconds flat. You know stuff about
tanks. A five-day vacation requires
only one suitcase. You can open all
your own jars (unless u're a wuss
wahahahaa). You get extra credit for
the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
If someone forgets to invite you, he
or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-
pack. Three pairs of shoes are more
than enough. You almost never have
strap problems in public.
You are unable to see wrinkles in your
clothes. Everything on your face stays
its original color. The same hairstyle
lasts for years, maybe decades. You
only have to shave your face and neck.

You can play with toys all your life.
Your belly usually hides your big
hips. One wallet and one pair of
shoes -- one color for all seasons.
You can wear shorts no matter how your
legs look. You can "do" your nails
with a pocket knife. You have freedom
of choice concerning growing a
mustache.

You can do Christmas shopping for 25
relatives on December 24 in 25
minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

oh well. anyway i just took my weight
and found that i lost 4kg during block leave.
how amazing.
LOL.
and how is that possible?

oh well. less than 16 hours to start trg to be a 2nd cls citizen.
hohoho.
life rocks.

hopefully i can book out for my interview nxt week.
(MAS on thursday)
i really hope so.

time for another update!

yeah so block leave is ending
and we are supposed to report to new unit.
for those who dont know,
im goin to SISPEC. wahahaha.
while most of the rest are going to be 1st cls citizens,
i will be 2nd. LOL.

but im really not bitter abt it lah.
bcos i noe my tonsils are givin me alot of probs.
and i prob wont survive 9mths in ocs?
hahahaha.

alright.
anw im glad i spent qt alot of time catching up with frens..
the only regret was that odac n cls gathering coincided..
so i could only go for odac cls outing..
yeap. and.. ODAC ppl are scandalous.
omg 4 couples within my batch alone.
i.e. EXCLUDING ME OK.

and i basically have been stuffing myself w food wahaha!
last sunday caught up with dumpers..
had steamboat at marina..
so i polished off qt a bit of meat. hehehe..
i like the meat. quite nice.
altho v carcinogenic.
oh before that had kite flying.
i tell u, watchin the girls fly kites..
got me pretty amused hahaha.
esp belle! =P

watched 300 w shih haur, kim mun, elgin, mike.
gave sh his PLAYBOY belt as belated bday pres.
hahaha.

smu open hse impressed me quite abit.
the LKC scholar was good..
he basically made up for the lack of confidence in the SMU scholar..
and saw alot of rj ppl.
like really alot.
and quote of the day.
some jokers behind us: "wah the RJians who cannot make it for
medicine or overseas come to smu.."
and there was this tone that we were 'snatching' their places?
so someone frm rj said: "den what. go macdonalds ah"
lol amusing.

oh and din really go out w ys cos of cts.
so went out ytd and today.
previously she came over to study la.
played pool haha.
as for the scores..
its quite funny hehe =))

and then TMNT.
such a cute entertaining show..

yeap basically qt alot of stuff written for this entry..
my sis bought some 2gb samsung mp3 player.
its damn slim.



so if i go out i can kope to use hahaha :))

speaking of which.
i am loyal fan of iriver.
and some of the new iriver designs are making me drooool!

altho there are some stupid designs as well..
like a MOVIE MP3 player with 1GB memory -.-

first today at the smu scholarship tea session,
i heard this super amusing quote.

"Money isnt the most important thing in the world..
Love is..
AND. I LOVE MONEY!"

and that made me go find more cute quotes!

"Duct tape is like the Force.
It has a light side, a dark side,
and it holds the universe together...."

"A birth-control pill for men, that's fair.
It makes more sense to take the bullets out of the gun
than to wear a bulletproof vest."

"He had decided to live forever or die in the attempt."

"Blessed are the young for they shall inherit the national debt."

"When having my portrait painted I don't want justice, I want mercy."

"A teacher is one who makes himself progressively unnecessary."

"Thieves respect property; they merely wish the property to
become their property that they may more perfectly respect it."

"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense."

AND the best quote of all goes to thomas caryle.
the very one who refers to his profession as the dismal science.
pretty amusing how much self worth he awards himself.

"Teach a parrot the terms "supply and demand" and you've got an economist."

and a dedication to ms ang yishan =P

"The best way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget is once."

muahahahaha.

Start off with 100% and minus off 1% for each thing that has happened to you.

Smoked. Drank alcohol. Cried when someone died. Been drunk. Had sex. Been to a concert. Given a handjob/gotten a handjob. Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob. Been verbally sexually harassed. Verbally sexually harassed somebody. Felt someone up and/or been felt up. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend. Been to prom. Cried at school. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store. Went streaking. Given a lap dance. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. Kissed a stranger. Hugged a stranger. Went scuba diving. Driven a car. Gotten an xray. Hit by a car. Had a party. Done drugs. Played strip poker. Got paid to strip for someone. Ran away from home. Broken a bone. Eaten sushi. Bought porn. Watched porn. Made porn. Had a crush on someone of the same sex. Been in love. French kissed. Laughed so hard you cried. Cried yourself to sleep. Laughed yourself to sleep. Stabbed yourself. Shot a gun. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. Been online for 9 consecutive hours. Watched an animal die. Watched a person die. Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. Pranked somebody. Put somebody in the hospital. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out. Kissed somebody of the same sex. Dressed punk. Dressed goth. Dressed preppy. Been to a motocross race. Avoided somebody. Been stalked. Stalked someone. Met a celebrity. Played an instrument. Ridden a horse. Cut yourself. Bungee jumped. Ding dong ditched somebody. Been to a wild party. Got caught stealing something. Kicked a guy in the balls. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend. Went out with your friend's crush. Got arrested. Been pregnant. Babysat. Been to another country. Started your house on fire. Had an encounter with a ghost. Donated your hair to cancer patients. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by. Cried over a member of the opposite sex. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months. Sat on your ass all day. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself. Had a job. Gotten cut from a sports team. Been called a whore. Danced like a whore. Been mistaken for a celebrity. Been in a car accident. Been told you have beautiful eyes. Been told you have beautiful hair. Raped somebody. Danced in the rain. Been rejected. Walked out of a restaurant without paying. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face

ah. 77%.

heylo ppl.
i have an impt announcement to make.
that is.

happy 18th birthday
ms ANG YI SHAN!! :))

yeap and so this post shall be dedicated to you!
nothing much to tell you since i already told
you what i need to tell you..

but i want to give a very wordy entry..
so just some pics ive collected over the past year!
since they each tell a 1000 words!

there, the tribute to the birthday girl!


hmmmm mirror image.


btw this is not me.







a bear can never replace a person =P
(even though there is much symbolism.)

yup and lastly.
my fav pic!!


where is my b******* p*****t? =P

one day short of 10 mths.

you are the reason my soul takes flight.

and i hope you enjoyed ur 18th birthday celeb. :))

POP was yesterday yo!

after 3 days of graduation parade rehearsal in the hot sun,
it rained on our parade yesterday.
well at first we thought it would be cancelled..
but we still carried on with it.
but it was a blessing in disguise in fact.
bcos it was much cooler!

i watched the videos that my mum took.
the salutes and stuff were damn in sync.
damn cool. like i nvr knew we looked so 'pro'

yeah. so anyway..
9 weeks just flew past in a flash.
its that fast.
i really hope i get into OCS man.
but going sispec isnt that bad either..
SINCE. theres like no confinement for first 3 wks.

alright. photos for you.
not all are here yet..
still have some photos with 3SG luqman
and 2lt najib..
from whom i have no idea how to get from.

yeap.. so for now.
some photos.



a nice view of bmtc!
note the dark clouds...
RAIN!!



parade level.
OC 'V' Coy was the parade comd
OC 'U' Coy.. i.e. my OC. right in front.
of the mass of ppl which is U coy.



prize winners..


aft cap is worn by parents.
we are drenched from the rain and sweat.



pic w 2lt johnathan,
2ic 'U' coy.
a damn nice officer!


and the last view of tekong,
perhaps for now.
i dont mind going back to bmtc as an instructor,
shld i go and graduate from command sch.

in fact, i want to..

well, we need to do some reflections on BMT
so i must as well post it here as well..

9 weeks have just flew past in a flash. In these 9 weeks,
I discovered more about myself, made new friends and
also toughened up both physically and mentally. I guess
one of my biggest discoveries would be how my character
has changed in the past 2 years - from an extrovert to
quite an introvert, at the present moment. My bunkmates
would know that I am pretty quiet in bunk, just basically
reading up on my own materials and/or chatting on the
phone.

For me, BMT would definitely be a memorable experience,
in both good and bad ways. There would definitely be ups
and downs in every journey you take, and for me, it was
falling out of the 12km route march during sitest. Slacking
around while the rest marched was definitely painful.
But,  I met some great pals (some new friends as well as of
course, my bruddahs from RJ) during the re-sit test, so
it wasnt too bad after all.. aside from the fact that the sky
was giving its bout of karma to us. I figured in these 9 weeks,
I have also become much more tolerant of people who just
get onto the nerves of others, especially those playing on
racial issues.

Lastly, I hear that training in Ulysses is relatively tough,
compared to other companies. So, at the end of the 9 weeks
journey, I am really glad that I pulled through and I am proud
to call myself a Ulysses warrior.

yeap thats all from me.
went to timbre yesterday for bday dinner.
one of yishan's ex-classmates.
shall go out today again.
haha. the most exciting bookout in a while =p

oh well its raining like hell yet again. oh well.
at least outfield camps are done for the moment.

the rain really reminds me of the desperate times during sit test.
haha. the first day, it was raining super heavily.
and basically we were like shit.
sure got water bed to sleep.
luckily the supervising officer, OC 'G' Coy,
was damn nice. we slpt in the training shed :))

and the sit test missions were fun. but kinda tiring?
i was the medic. and leopard crawling w the stretcher aint nice.
the same w arti n sniper drills.
hohoho.
oh well.

IO test on saturday was damn interesting.
really qt mind boggling i suppose.

oh and 9 more days to POP.
tmr is live grenade throw.
tues is ippt.
and im on medication. hohoho.
silver probably?
den tues was supposed to be SOC test,
but i suppose it will be pushed back.
wednesday? i suppose.
and lastly, 24km on friday.
oh thurs games day.
possibly recruits evening too.
hmm. then.. bookout n book in.
gp rehearsal on 12th.
POP on 13th!
then can go home lalala :)

i suppose 24km will b dead shaggy.
so if ppl see me like a walkin zombie on this sat aft/nite.
you guys noe why.
muahaha =P
well.. at least i dont have confinement =DD

hello my blogreaders,

havent had time to blog.
and no mood too.

sigh. anyway re-sit was good.
it was rather slack physically.
only thing was weather was damn bad.
rained heavily on first two days, our boots were wet.
our feet were swimming.
to the extent that even aft changing to fresh boots/shoes,
i could still feel my soles squishing the water when i walk.
rofl. amazing.

anyway, im listening to westlife - if your heart's not in it.
its such a nice song!

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

yeapyeap. other than that As are out.
i think i did rather okay, altho im slightly disappointed?

and im passing out in like 10 days time?
in fact another hour, it will be 9 days left
this friday will be 24km route march.
wish me gooood luck and hope i dont die.
hohoho.

okay thats all from me lah i suppose.
my past two weekends have been so sickeningly depressingly empty..
other than yesterday, hope the dinner was good.