winning without sacrifice is no victory.

this week.

2007-05-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

sigh this week really sucks.

all kinds of shit just came flying at me.
zzz.
stupid arguments at home.
lotsa shit in camp.
and i really dont know what the hell is happening with another issue.
zzz.

this few days in camp have really been shitty.
like basically working like 18 hour days or sth like that.
and not much rest in between.
basically get exploited like shit.
wth manz.

and it doesnt help that some other probs plagued me the previous wkend.
and prob this wkend as well.
and stupid arguments.
stupid accusations made at me. by my mum.
it sucks.
to have to handle everything together.

and it sucks even more.
when i would like to confide in one person.
but that person aint there for me.

sometimes. i really feel like quitting.
altogether.
this is just one of the suckiest weeks.
and nxt week is going to be worse.

it seems like im all alone in this world.
with a pile of shit.
im amazed i havent lost my sanity yet.

postin frm camp

2007-05-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

heyylo ppl.

my net at home is down.
stupid singnet. it always happens.

anyway last week has been rather exciting.
like i was outfield for duty on tues n wed.
then thurs booked out to go safti mi for research.
was with another ooc.
and we had fun. some adventures too haha.

oh and friday i booked out to hand letter of acceptance at pub.
after which i went lunch w dad and got two polo tees.
quite the cheap i must say :))

met ys on sat for a short while
and i went pooling/dinner with gingin. (elgin)
aft that we were just walkin ard w shih haur.
cos elgin needed to get a shirt for social night,
i saw a nice topman belt and bought it!
woohoo.
and we kept meeting yanni n lulu..
met some others in orchard oso!
saw bert (softballer) and guanghao.

oh and the highlight of saturday was watching bruce fight.
bruce is my asst coach at my mt gym.
yeah and he basically destroyed his opponent.
lol.
like the fight ended aft abt 1 plus min.
with a devastating spinning back to his stomach..
lol and i realised the thigh kick he has been advocatin is damn effective.
he gave his opponent 2-3 of those.
and 2-3 hours aft the fight i saw his opponent still having difficulty standing up
LOL.

okay so life has been great so far.
i went physio today and i gotta go for some muscle strength test.
and balance test lol
for my knee.
amusing..
and the physio says i will get at least 3mths PES c?
lol.
and a possibility of permanent downgrade hohoho.

alright almost done with the essay proj for one of my enciks..
nw just stoning in aircon coy mess.
slack slack slack.
but at least im qt sure we (another ooc n me) did a damn good job!
haha.
and i have been promoted to temp clerk for now!
lol. no need to go outfield!

my tasks for a day...
do parade state, report sick and company routine order forms.
yeah. thats abt it =P

tag tag tag!

and there is a way to make things right :)

2007-05-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

lalala.
one of my fav quotes by michael schofield.
on prison break.
and im glad i kept on hoping.
and trying.
and we did make things right.

although im considered 'single'.
but im unavailable.
all that matter are our feelings.
HAHA (:

ice cream outing it shall be.
tomorrow.
and i will book in happily.

and cheers to the mrt song =P

breaking free.

[Troy]
We’re soarin’, flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach

[Gabriella]
If we’re trying
So we’re breaking free

[Troy]
You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are

[Gabriella]
Creating space between us
‘Til we’re separate hearts

[Both]
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe

[Chorus:]
[Troy]
We’re breakin’ free
[Gabriella]
We’re soarin’
[Troy]
Flyin’
[Both]
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
[Troy]
If we’re trying
[Both]
Yeah, we’re breaking free
[Troy]
Oh, we’re breakin’ free
[Gabriella]
Ohhhh
[Troy]
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can’t control
[Gabriella]
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
[Both]
Rising ‘til it lifts us up
So every one can see

[Chorus:]
[Troy]We’re breakin’ free
[Gabriella]We’re soarin’
[Troy]Flyin’
[Both]
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
[Troy]
If we’re trying
Yeah we’re breaking free
[Gabriella]
Ohhhh runnin’
[Troy]
Climbin’
To get to that place
[Both]
To be all that we can be
[Troy]
Now’s the time
[Both]
So we’re breaking free
[Troy]
We’re breaking free
[Gabriella]
Ohhh , yeah

[Troy]
More than hope
More than faith
[Gabriella]
This is true
This is fate
And together

[Both]
We see it comin’
[Troy]
More than you
More than me

[Gabriella]
Not a want, but a need
[Both]
Both of us breakin’ free

[Chorus:]
[Gabriella] Soarin’
[Troy] Flyin’
[Both]
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
If we’re trying
[Troy] Yeah we’re breaking free
[Gabriella]
Breaking free
Were runnin’
[Troy]
Ohhhh, climbin’
[Both]
To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now’s the time
[Troy] Now’s the time
[Gabriella] So we’re breaking free
[Troy] Ohhh, we’re breaking free
[Gabriella] Ohhhh

[Both]
You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are

playlist

2007-05-01T08:00:00.000+08:00

was reading our own little stakeout.

i cant help but get affected.

im like repeatedly listening to this playlist of a few songs.

1) aslyn - thats when i love you.
2) corrine may - if i kissed you
3) craig david - unbelievable
4) HSM - start of sth new
5) HSM - when there was you and me
6) HSM - breaking free.
7) jesse mccartney - why dont you kiss her.
8) westlife - puzzle of my heart
9) westlife - if your heart's not in it.

and i have no doubt you know why.

late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you

it ends tonight

2007-04-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

it ends tonight?
does it.
im not about to believe it does.
perhaps its just a pause,
a comma.
and not..
the emphatic discontinuity of a fullstop.

well even if it is.
theres still a smile on my face.
not from what happened.
but from remembering a certain sweet smile.
and all the beautiful memories we had.

bus rides will never be lonely.
rain will nvr seem depressing.
even jap food tastes good.
and retail therapy seems to work.

you still live in my heart..
i know the flame hasnt been extinguished.
its just flickering for now.
perhaps due to the winds of circumstance.
and time is an essence im willing to afford.
wait i will.

forget me not.
i plead you.
a real life fairytale is still possible.
as long as you remember where your heart belongs.
and where mine is.

joke of the century.

2007-04-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

s h i f u - 41SAR. says:
my ears damn pain all the time
- s h i f u - 41SAR. says:
sometiems got ringing
eddy says:
rofl?
eddy says:
ringing?
eddy says:
maybe u got earphone
eddy says:
so ring ring

actually that was just the appetiser.
the real joke is here.

:: klarissa says:
haha anw how dare u say e genes dont run in my family
eddy says:
HAHAHA
eddy says:
duh
:: klarissa says:
they do ok
eddy says:
u so ugly..
eddy says:
=P
eddy says:
hhahahahaha
:: klarissa says:
my sis and i look alike a
:: klarissa says:
and
:: klarissa says:
if my sis is cute
:: klarissa says:
so am i!

update

2007-04-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i last updated.
life hasnt been so exciting.
yes.

for those who do not know.
i have OOCed thanks to my knee(s).
OOC = out of course.
lols. and i wont b qualifyin for command sch.
due to health reasons. :)

and basically just spending my whole day reading.
and doing some lame shit tt the sgts want.
like buying food for them at the canteen.
or laminating/photocopying pieces of paper for them.
and almost ALMOST cleaning their bunk for them.
im certainly amazed by the extent of laziness ppl have.
well done.
well at least i have enough time to read up on stuff i want to.

oh. i got offer for pub scholarship.
still thinking abt whether to accept it..
and got offer from smu for double deg.
which aint too hard.
but i need to change from like social science to business.
another unresolved issue.

jsut booked out.
long weekend.
which is good.

long weekend

2007-04-06T19:08:00.000+08:00

good friday = long weekend.
hohoho.
but nxt wk end will suck.
relative to the goodness of this weekend.
guard duty on sunday.
woohoo..
plus the fact that someone will b away...
on expedition..
so no outings on sat :(
BUT FEAR NOT.
just as i have failed to disappoint with my humour,
i have failed to produce enough reason to stay in camp. =P

17th mar, SMU interview at 9am! :))
prob book out the night before.
i hope.
but im missin the claymore mine test.
so.. oops!
but theres always a retest.
so no worries.

yeah anyway pt training is pwning. lol.
SOC is prob the most hated trg NOW.
and its easy to understand why.
after running + strength trg in the morn,
SOC trg consisted of...
1) abt 2km of running in SBO (uphill for some parts.)
its damn no joke manz.
2) full SOC rundown
3) another round of obstacles.
4) obstacle training.
(basically doing the difficult obstacles.)

oh at least theres nice sectionmates to share the shit!
hohoho.
its much better w/o tt chaokeng asshole ard.
but a testament of my section's unity would be..
an OUTING aft every bookout. (so far)
and having spent 6/7 nights every week tog,
they still want to spend last night together.
playing LAN -.- LOL.
which mr dota noob here got owned terribly at.
after all, i prefer real life dota fights.
hohoho. i select the muay thai warrior. wahahaha =P

and today was vivo day.
i went for only two shops actually. LOL
topman and pull n bear.
and while pull n bear disappointed,
topman justified the ardous journey
from my ulu yishun to the south of singapore.
(im exaggerating, if you have failed to notice)
as the cheapo discount hunter encountered nice striped
tees/polo tees at a price of 20+ bucks.
which is like cheaper den the usual standards of abt 25%.
and so the catch of the day..
1 striped polo tee and 1 striped not so polo tee. (t-shirt la!)

shit i really do sound damn cheapo.
oops. hahaha.
time to disappear.
revive my tagboard pls ppl.
thankyou :)

lets hope i survive nxt week of sispec.
my right ankle and right knee and neck is already in a terrible state.
and i can feel the imminent injury of my left knee.
hoho.

emo no more!

2007-03-31T19:27:00.000+08:00

okay after that blog entry i went to sleep.
cos i din feel like doing anything else.
now i feel happier!
lalalaa..

anw as i was saying..
sispec is nice..
other den the really fked up haircut. =P
okay. so reality check for you here:

the specialist's creed
(hohoho)

i am a specialist of the singapore armed forces,
with pride i lead.

i excel in my field
and ensure the discipline of my men
and their mission readiness.

i overcome adversity with my fighting spirit
i defend singapore with my life.

yeap thats it.
haha. pretty good life i would say.
compared to OCS.
DEFINITELY.
haha.
i dont mind tough pt.
or tough training
as long as u give me my admin time.
which i have. :))

yeap. but still. no matter how slim the chance.
im still gunning for ocs.
i wont give up.
no not at least until i achieve my goal.
the trip to the doctor was good i suppose.
i finally recovered.
can chiong sua already!

1 wk in sispec

2007-03-31T17:23:00.000+08:00

1 wk in sispec has passed so quickly.
in juliet coy.
and it rocks.
haha. fantastic.
esp aft jian feng told me abt sispec delta.
wahahaha.

hmm anyway im really going crazy.
like really damn damn bored at home.
oh well..
its sort of like transiting between home and camp only.
hopefully i will be going out tomorrow. sigh.
it kinda sucks like looking forward to bookout.
then end up staying at home only.
(and no its not anyone's fault!
im just emoing.)

theres really some things i really really want to do.
(1) eat at manhattan fish market/fish n co.
(2) go vivocity to shop
(3) get polo tees

oh and i got owned for MAS.
got rejected aft interview.
but oh well. whats new.
not as if i din expect it.

hoohaa!

2007-03-26T06:39:00.000+08:00

hello ppl guess what.
i rushed to doc's last night cos i sudd had shortness of breath.
and the stupid shortness of breath,lethargy that
has buggin me for the last 5 weeks or so.
effectively preventing me from being my normal self.
has hopefully been solved.
my usual family doctor couldnt help. LOL.
yeah. and its asthma.
which is qt weird cos i nvr had asthma.
a big LOL.

anyway back to reality yeah.. haha

School Of Infantry Specialists here we come,
Soldiers of every creed and race...
Soldiers to Specialists we will become,
Leader of six men will set the pace..
(how abt leader with six packs? =P
and further on, one big united nations..
hurhurhur)

Sispec Warriors, we are the Warriors..
Sispec Warriors, With Pride we will Lead...
Fearlessly we lead with pride,
Train hard full of might,
Train to lead by day and night,
We will strive for greater heights....
(like for OCS crossover!!)

tragic.

2007-03-25T17:31:00.001+08:00

I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces.
My Duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome.
I lead my men by example.
I answer for their training morale and discipline.
I must excel in everything I do.
I serve with pride, honour and integrity.
I will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination.
I dedicate my life to Singapore.

how inspiring it is.
and it just plain sucks to know that.
i might never be able to recite the above.
lol.
resignation.

perhaps some ppl want to be officers
bcos of the prestige of the rank.
well. i would just be proud to say i made it through.
LOL.
and unfortunately, i dont even get the experience.
hohoho.
and even if i do get a commander's experience,
wont be that of a 2nd class citizen?

im deeply amused.

why men are happier

2007-03-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

direct copy and paste.
(from scott.)

why men are happier.

What do you expect from such simple
creatures? Your last name stays put.
The garage is all yours. Wedding plans
take care of themselves. Chocolate is
just another snack. You can be
President. You can never be pregnant.
You can wear a white T-shirt to a
water park. You can wear NO shirt to a
water park. Car mechanics tell you the
truth. The world is your urinal. You
never have to drive to another gas
station restroom because this one is
just too icky. You don't have to stop
and think of which way to turn a nut
on a
bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles
add character. Wedding dress $5000.
Tux rental-$100. People never stare at
your chest when you're talking to
them. The occasional well-rendered
belch is practically expected. New
shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle
your feet. One mood all the time.

Phone conversations are over in 30
seconds flat. You know stuff about
tanks. A five-day vacation requires
only one suitcase. You can open all
your own jars (unless u're a wuss
wahahahaa). You get extra credit for
the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
If someone forgets to invite you, he
or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-
pack. Three pairs of shoes are more
than enough. You almost never have
strap problems in public.
You are unable to see wrinkles in your
clothes. Everything on your face stays
its original color. The same hairstyle
lasts for years, maybe decades. You
only have to shave your face and neck.

You can play with toys all your life.
Your belly usually hides your big
hips. One wallet and one pair of
shoes -- one color for all seasons.
You can wear shorts no matter how your
legs look. You can "do" your nails
with a pocket knife. You have freedom
of choice concerning growing a
mustache.

You can do Christmas shopping for 25
relatives on December 24 in 25
minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

oh well. anyway i just took my weight
and found that i lost 4kg during block leave.
how amazing.
LOL.
and how is that possible?

oh well. less than 16 hours to start trg to be a 2nd cls citizen.
hohoho.
life rocks.

hopefully i can book out for my interview nxt week.
(MAS on thursday)
i really hope so.

update

2007-03-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

time for another update!

yeah so block leave is ending
and we are supposed to report to new unit.
for those who dont know,
im goin to SISPEC. wahahaha.
while most of the rest are going to be 1st cls citizens,
i will be 2nd. LOL.

but im really not bitter abt it lah.
bcos i noe my tonsils are givin me alot of probs.
and i prob wont survive 9mths in ocs?
hahahaha.

alright.
anw im glad i spent qt alot of time catching up with frens..
the only regret was that odac n cls gathering coincided..
so i could only go for odac cls outing..
yeap. and.. ODAC ppl are scandalous.
omg 4 couples within my batch alone.
i.e. EXCLUDING ME OK.

and i basically have been stuffing myself w food wahaha!
last sunday caught up with dumpers..
had steamboat at marina..
so i polished off qt a bit of meat. hehehe..
i like the meat. quite nice.
altho v carcinogenic.
oh before that had kite flying.
i tell u, watchin the girls fly kites..
got me pretty amused hahaha.
esp belle! =P

watched 300 w shih haur, kim mun, elgin, mike.
gave sh his PLAYBOY belt as belated bday pres.
hahaha.

smu open hse impressed me quite abit.
the LKC scholar was good..
he basically made up for the lack of confidence in the SMU scholar..
and saw alot of rj ppl.
like really alot.
and quote of the day.
some jokers behind us: "wah the RJians who cannot make it for
medicine or overseas come to smu.."
and there was this tone that we were 'snatching' their places?
so someone frm rj said: "den what. go macdonalds ah"
lol amusing.

oh and din really go out w ys cos of cts.
so went out ytd and today.
previously she came over to study la.
played pool haha.
as for the scores..
its quite funny hehe =))

and then TMNT.
such a cute entertaining show..

yeap basically qt alot of stuff written for this entry..
my sis bought some 2gb samsung mp3 player.
its damn slim.

so if i go out i can kope to use hahaha :))

speaking of which.
i am loyal fan of iriver.
and some of the new iriver designs are making me drooool!

altho there are some stupid designs as well..
like a MOVIE MP3 player with 1GB memory -.-

funny quotes hahaha

2007-03-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

first today at the smu scholarship tea session,
i heard this super amusing quote.

"Money isnt the most important thing in the world..
Love is..
AND. I LOVE MONEY!"

and that made me go find more cute quotes!

"Duct tape is like the Force.
It has a light side, a dark side,
and it holds the universe together...."

"A birth-control pill for men, that's fair.
It makes more sense to take the bullets out of the gun
than to wear a bulletproof vest."

"He had decided to live forever or die in the attempt."

"Blessed are the young for they shall inherit the national debt."

"When having my portrait painted I don't want justice, I want mercy."

"A teacher is one who makes himself progressively unnecessary."

"Thieves respect property; they merely wish the property to
become their property that they may more perfectly respect it."

"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense."

AND the best quote of all goes to thomas caryle.
the very one who refers to his profession as the dismal science.
pretty amusing how much self worth he awards himself.

"Teach a parrot the terms "supply and demand" and you've got an economist."

and a dedication to ms ang yishan =P

"The best way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget is once."

muahahahaha.

boredom

2007-03-22T11:17:00.000+08:00

Start off with 100% and minus off 1% for each thing that has happened to you.

Smoked. Drank alcohol. Cried when someone died. Been drunk. Had sex. Been to a concert. Given a handjob/gotten a handjob. Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob. Been verbally sexually harassed. Verbally sexually harassed somebody. Felt someone up and/or been felt up. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend. Been to prom. Cried at school. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store. Went streaking. Given a lap dance. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. Kissed a stranger. Hugged a stranger. Went scuba diving. Driven a car. Gotten an xray. Hit by a car. Had a party. Done drugs. Played strip poker. Got paid to strip for someone. Ran away from home. Broken a bone. Eaten sushi. Bought porn. Watched porn. Made porn. Had a crush on someone of the same sex. Been in love. French kissed. Laughed so hard you cried. Cried yourself to sleep. Laughed yourself to sleep. Stabbed yourself. Shot a gun. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. Been online for 9 consecutive hours. Watched an animal die. Watched a person die. Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. Pranked somebody. Put somebody in the hospital. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out. Kissed somebody of the same sex. Dressed punk. Dressed goth. Dressed preppy. Been to a motocross race. Avoided somebody. Been stalked. Stalked someone. Met a celebrity. Played an instrument. Ridden a horse. Cut yourself. Bungee jumped. Ding dong ditched somebody. Been to a wild party. Got caught stealing something. Kicked a guy in the balls. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend. Went out with your friend's crush. Got arrested. Been pregnant. Babysat. Been to another country. Started your house on fire. Had an encounter with a ghost. Donated your hair to cancer patients. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by. Cried over a member of the opposite sex. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months. Sat on your ass all day. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself. Had a job. Gotten cut from a sports team. Been called a whore. Danced like a whore. Been mistaken for a celebrity. Been in a car accident. Been told you have beautiful eyes. Been told you have beautiful hair. Raped somebody. Danced in the rain. Been rejected. Walked out of a restaurant without paying. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face

ah. 77%.

happy 18th

2007-03-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

heylo ppl.
i have an impt announcement to make.
that is.

happy 18th birthday
ms ANG YI SHAN!! :))

yeap and so this post shall be dedicated to you!
nothing much to tell you since i already told
you what i need to tell you..

but i want to give a very wordy entry..
so just some pics ive collected over the past year!
since they each tell a 1000 words!

there, the tribute to the birthday girl!

hmmmm mirror image.

btw this is not me.

a bear can never replace a person =P
(even though there is much symbolism.)

yup and lastly.
my fav pic!!

where is my b******* p*****t? =P

happy 10.

2007-03-19T09:06:00.000+08:00

one day short of 10 mths.

you are the reason my soul takes flight.

and i hope you enjoyed ur 18th birthday celeb. :))

POP

2007-03-14T07:16:00.000+08:00

POP was yesterday yo!

after 3 days of graduation parade rehearsal in the hot sun,
it rained on our parade yesterday.
well at first we thought it would be cancelled..
but we still carried on with it.
but it was a blessing in disguise in fact.
bcos it was much cooler!

i watched the videos that my mum took.
the salutes and stuff were damn in sync.
damn cool. like i nvr knew we looked so 'pro'

yeah. so anyway..
9 weeks just flew past in a flash.
its that fast.
i really hope i get into OCS man.
but going sispec isnt that bad either..
SINCE. theres like no confinement for first 3 wks.

alright. photos for you.
not all are here yet..
still have some photos with 3SG luqman
and 2lt najib..
from whom i have no idea how to get from.

yeap.. so for now.
some photos.

a nice view of bmtc!
note the dark clouds...
RAIN!!

parade level.
OC 'V' Coy was the parade comd
OC 'U' Coy.. i.e. my OC. right in front.
of the mass of ppl which is U coy.

prize winners..

aft cap is worn by parents.
we are drenched from the rain and sweat.

pic w 2lt johnathan,
2ic 'U' coy.
a damn nice officer!

and the last view of tekong,
perhaps for now.
i dont mind going back to bmtc as an instructor,
shld i go and graduate from command sch.

in fact, i want to..

reflections.

2007-03-11T07:00:00.000+08:00

well, we need to do some reflections on BMT
so i must as well post it here as well..

9 weeks have just flew past in a flash. In these 9 weeks,
I discovered more about myself, made new friends and
also toughened up both physically and mentally. I guess
one of my biggest discoveries would be how my character
has changed in the past 2 years - from an extrovert to
quite an introvert, at the present moment. My bunkmates
would know that I am pretty quiet in bunk, just basically
reading up on my own materials and/or chatting on the
phone.

For me, BMT would definitely be a memorable experience,
in both good and bad ways. There would definitely be ups
and downs in every journey you take, and for me, it was
falling out of the 12km route march during sitest. Slacking
around while the rest marched was definitely painful.
But, I met some great pals (some new friends as well as of
course, my bruddahs from RJ) during the re-sit test, so
it wasnt too bad after all.. aside from the fact that the sky
was giving its bout of karma to us. I figured in these 9 weeks,
I have also become much more tolerant of people who just
get onto the nerves of others, especially those playing on
racial issues.

Lastly, I hear that training in Ulysses is relatively tough,
compared to other companies. So, at the end of the 9 weeks
journey, I am really glad that I pulled through and I am proud
to call myself a Ulysses warrior.

yeap thats all from me.
went to timbre yesterday for bday dinner.
one of yishan's ex-classmates.
shall go out today again.
haha. the most exciting bookout in a while =p

rainy

2007-03-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

oh well its raining like hell yet again. oh well.
at least outfield camps are done for the moment.

the rain really reminds me of the desperate times during sit test.
haha. the first day, it was raining super heavily.
and basically we were like shit.
sure got water bed to sleep.
luckily the supervising officer, OC 'G' Coy,
was damn nice. we slpt in the training shed :))

and the sit test missions were fun. but kinda tiring?
i was the medic. and leopard crawling w the stretcher aint nice.
the same w arti n sniper drills.
hohoho.
oh well.

IO test on saturday was damn interesting.
really qt mind boggling i suppose.

oh and 9 more days to POP.
tmr is live grenade throw.
tues is ippt.
and im on medication. hohoho.
silver probably?
den tues was supposed to be SOC test,
but i suppose it will be pushed back.
wednesday? i suppose.
and lastly, 24km on friday.
oh thurs games day.
possibly recruits evening too.
hmm. then.. bookout n book in.
gp rehearsal on 12th.
POP on 13th!
then can go home lalala :)

i suppose 24km will b dead shaggy.
so if ppl see me like a walkin zombie on this sat aft/nite.
you guys noe why.
muahaha =P
well.. at least i dont have confinement =DD

emoemoemo

2007-03-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

hello my blogreaders,

havent had time to blog.
and no mood too.

sigh. anyway re-sit was good.
it was rather slack physically.
only thing was weather was damn bad.
rained heavily on first two days, our boots were wet.
our feet were swimming.
to the extent that even aft changing to fresh boots/shoes,
i could still feel my soles squishing the water when i walk.
rofl. amazing.

anyway, im listening to westlife - if your heart's not in it.
its such a nice song!

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

yeapyeap. other than that As are out.
i think i did rather okay, altho im slightly disappointed?

and im passing out in like 10 days time?
in fact another hour, it will be 9 days left
this friday will be 24km route march.
wish me gooood luck and hope i dont die.
hohoho.

okay thats all from me lah i suppose.
my past two weekends have been so sickeningly depressingly empty..
other than yesterday, hope the dinner was good.

shiokness!

2007-02-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

hello peeps!

the week aft cny has really been lotsa ups and downs.
actually alot of downs lah.

so basically i had a fantastic tues aftnoon at home,
just lazing ard on the bed. and booked in tues nite!

wed was sit test. unfortunately for me,
it soon became unsit test week.
lol. cos weather was too hot, i almost collapsed during route march.
oh well so i was ineligible for sit test,
stayed outfield for 3 days, doing stores and diggin latrine.
exciting huh?
we were damn bored. (The re-sitees. abt 20 of us)

yeap and jason is a medic to be now!
so anyway at least outfield i had fresh rations. quite shiok.

anyway i decided to get myself confined this weekend rather than nxt.
so i only booked out today morn.
thankfully book in is tmr, 845am.
so that leaves me w an extra 12 hours and of course,
A DAY AT HOME IN BED. woohoo!
and if u think confinement is only for special ones,
hear ye hear ye.
for ulysses, ppl with >1 confinements, we have 40.
for ppl with 1 confinement, 120.

you work the rest out. hohoho.
yeap so since i have resit test nxt wk and will book out sat evening,
havin confinement effectively means not booking out at all.
and since As are comnig out, i need time to settle stuff!

oh well i hope i can possibly book out for A level results,
WITHOUT compromising on my sit test.

anyway my oc, csm and 2ic are damn nice! haha.
they talked to me qt a bit during the sit test,
cos i was feelin down lah.
and basically cos 2ic told oc that i was considering signin on!
hohoho!
yeap, oh well, and my 2ic even wrote me a testi,
about what i revealed during the convo..
coolios. well theres a chance you might read this..
so thankyou..

anyway todays my first NIGHT out since book in.
so sad, yes but someone's mummy v strict. so too bad hor =p
yeah. today was well spent!

coming home, talkin to my fav girl :))
err, watchin heroes, using the com, blogsurfing,
readin papers and of course, EATING! :))
oh and catchin up w frens and gettin A PRESENT!

okay im out.
everyone takecare takecare..
and if i can book out for As, i'll see youuu guys.
exciting stuff! tata.

stoning at home

2007-02-19T10:35:00.000+08:00

yeap im stoning at home now. quite boring.

just watched season 3 ep 5 of TUF. damn interesting lah.
the fight was good.

oh well season 3 is some emo shit season lah.
firstly, the fighters saw randy coulture retire
after he lost to chuck liddell.
its a sucky way to retire man.

and i respect tito ortiz alot now.
previously i thought he was a freaking monkey.

anyway thats besides the point.
but i got a damn good quote from the show, wrt UFC.
"to me its not a bloodsport, its just a sport".

coolness.
anyway im stoning at home today.
my mum saes shes too lazy to go visiting.
probably tired washin all my stinky no. 4s from field camp. =p
den later on tonight shall go for another visit.
and tomorrow goin out w ys.

yeah. thats all for now.
happy chinese new year ppl!

ufc

2007-02-17T10:13:00.000+08:00

sian im watchin the ultimate fighter now.

and everytime i see them fight, see them train.
my hands n legs itch.

BCCT is nothing compared to adrenaline rush of training.
i want to go back to train.
argh. too bad i only book out on sat. rawr.. =X

back from civilisation

2007-02-17T06:22:00.000+08:00

its 6am and im already awake.
even though i slpt at 1am.
holy mamaa. the ns reveille. haha.

the commanders all v sneaky.
bring in cam hp.
lol exciting pics to take in the memories.

ahhh im back from one week of..
normal army life + confinement (cos of field camp)
and then another week of field camp.

so exciting. haha.
got this thick stack of papers waiting to read now.
otherwise i will just die.

anyway u noe i was kind of sad ytd before i booked out.
was qt envious of nic cos cherie was coming to pick him up
(as usual i suppose)

then ys said she was going out for dinner w mummy.
meaning we can only go out on tues.
den.. guess what!

that silly girl surprised me at pasir ris.
quote cherie "ur expression was priceless". lols.
so in the end we took haojun's car and came home.. =D

field camp was great. haha. but tiring mans.
sleeping in sth like ur own grave is qt an eyeopener.
haha. just that got alot of ant bites cos
i think my tent was ard an ant nest.

you know. alot of ppl were missing showers and food..
guess what i missed. i think im abit weird.

items(ppl) w the most priority at the top:
(1) who else.
(2) mp3 player (damn i need my lovely music)
my speakers own mannnnnn. aft not listening to it for damn long.
holy shit the basssss rocks!!!
(3) wearin contacts. glasses freakin irritating.

you know at some pt i was talkin to ziming.
den we both agreed we kind of missed school. haha.
abit of freedom i suppose?
hmm dont get me wrong. armys perfectly fine.
but sometimes when its tough, you always look back.
now i appreciate school. haha. too late =p

thats all. rofl. amazing huh!

on a sadder note.
i think i noe of a super lovely couple who broke up alr.
bcos army takes away the gf.
sadness.
oh well, maybe. just maybe.
its a blessin in disguise.
like army really exaggerates the rocky part of the r/s.
oh well. thankfully im blessed :))

booking in soon

2007-01-28T09:29:00.000+08:00

hohoho book in time: 8pm at pasir ris mrt.

anw went to fetch ys from vj aft her sats.
and guess who i saw.
MAX. lol!
yes mr armour PC. lols.

yeah. but anw point being we went shopping haha.
and i got a nice topman polo tee. for a v nice price as well :))
and half mth pay arrived. so exciting man!
too bad i spent like 85 on 90 pieces of dailies alr. oops.

and had nydc lunch. the mudpie was shiok!
yeap so basically someone was dragging the tired me all over =p
hahaha. im sorry im so stoned =p

anw saw damn lot of ppl at marina/suntec. lets see.
sf/gerald/serene/haisong/ziming/tallshuting..
cant rmb who else.
but i rmb the whole dae was like seeing ppl n saying hi.
ok qt exaggerated but sth to tt effect.
thats qt alot already.

oh and i saw cherie n liru when i booked out!

yeap i heard sch 1s having field camp this week. damn fast lah.
mines the nxt week. so we will just bookout in time for cny =))
lalala.

and im damn pissed w myself rawr.
continued trg while being breathlessness. like sick those kind.
lungs v tight.
then started coughing.
so now, when i cough my chest hurts.
my lungs are damn tight.
wah. the feeling sucks.

okay breakfast date with my darling shifu hahahaha.
in 20min or so, at northpoint..
i havent bought my snacks to contribute to my section yet.
shall do so later.
brought alot of papers to read.
haha.

btw quotes of the weeks (from army).

some recruit:
DO WE USE OUR EZLINK or 11B (military i/c) for transport.

wah that one can faint. lols.

and last one frm my section mate.. woohoo:

he sings.
(1) incest is the best, put ur siblings to the test!
(2) papa, your penis is the biggest thing my ass ever had. (haha!)
(3) my papa lie over my mama,
my mama lie over my papa.
and thats how they got little me!

btw guys we all 15 days confinement sian diao alr..
so.. lets hail DAFFY.
with her 19 days confinement. hahaha.

okay. tmr going to singapore discovery centre.
woohoo. one less day of trg =p
heh. and As willbe coming out aft CNY, so i heard.

till den, cyaa ppl!

and im back from tekong.

2007-01-27T07:54:00.000+08:00

hello ppl im back from tekong. i think these 2 weeks were good.

other than dying pretty badly for the pt (fell sick so had breathing problems),
im okay for all the activities.

and i did NOT feel homesick at all. im amazed. lol.
(previously thought homesickness was like something expected.)

you know, coming out back to civilisation,
it totally feels WEIRD, just to say the least.
like we are totally disconnected from the ROTW.

im glad i still have my good friends around
(And of course, someone else even more special)
who bother to stay in touch with me. :))
i sound so sad. haha.

and also, (im bloggin incoherently),
not to muse at the problems of others,
but i feel really lucky that i have someone who i can totally trust..
.. like one of my bunkmates had gf problems
and was damn down for 3-4 days.

yepyep :)

aside from that its another 7 more weeks to go out of 9.
2 weeks passed in a flash.
thanks to all the platoon 1 buddies for the great times i have had.
and of course, to my section mates who rock the house down.

out.

goodbye civilisation

2007-01-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

hello pppl, ur author has about 12 hours to...
TEKONG! woohoo.
sho exciting.

so i think i will be back on 26th or 27th.
so so so. dont miss me too much haha!

yeap. i will miss you ~~guys~~ all.
i forgot all the guys are at tekong HAHAHA. =p
lastly to you: remember to make time for me!
dont indulge in tv. mug more!
haha okay ciaoz.

bullshido.com

2007-01-10T08:07:00.000+08:00

wooot. gettin boootiful boxer from ariel by snailmail.

and the best quotes frm bullshido.com.

"forum title: november is.. taekwondo sucks month.
reply: hey.. wont there be novemeber 12 times a year?"

"because 90% of karate schools suck ballsacks.
which isnt too bad, 99% of kung fu ones do.
i have a paper in statistics so trust me on these numbers."

"Martial Arts is like sex,
if you over complicate it with exotic sounding names,
theories and principles, you end up fucking yourself in the ass."

(a big LOL)

"No surprise.
Until Aikido sheds its street-brawling, thuggish image,
it'll never be mainstream."

(holy shitz!?!?!)

on which MA is best:
"I said Krabi Krabong
because most people just don't know what it is.
But when one of your weapons is an armored war elephant
how much ass do you kick?"

and on the same thread:
"I don't know what a lot of those are.
I voted for Penjak Silat because I like the name."

what an idiot.

"TKD, ever since a TKD-kid came into our gym,
saw a class, went up to me and
asked if the 540 was legal in a MT match."

"Wanna see my moves?
It's a mix between karate...and cheerleading"

and i thought i was tired.

2007-01-10T07:38:00.000+08:00

yeap and when i thought i would be sick of training at home.
there will be new inspiration. lol.
(hmm going to mma academy would mean paying like damn lot lols.
for lessons i cant fulfil.
and the lack of a partner jus makes it more irritating.
at least in feb, aft bmt.
i have ariel <3. hes a guy btw.)

like ytd, i was watching choke highlights.
and then readin up on a lot of mma sites.
lockflow.com
knucklepit.com

when you see those guys drilling and sparring,
the inspiration to train really gets to you.
i guess its always like tt.
previously when i was into karate,
the olympic tigers video (altho that was tkd)
really inspired me.

so what now.
ufc - especially the ultimate fighter.
i really love training.
its tough, but the fruits of labour are immense.

anyway saw some shit on stomp.
those retards holy mamaa!!

shall highlight this thread to you.

for goddsake, if you want to take part in the ufc
(which in the first case, is so damn hard alr),
you need ground skills. not just striking arts. =.=

and with regards to krav maga,
i din noe " the one that’s just opened here in s’pore teaches rather
toned down techniques of this ancient art.."

yoyoyo. krav maga was started by the israelis 30 years ago?
rofl? rofl? ancient? woooh. my mama is a dinosaur den. LOL.
krav maga was started by the israeli military.
while most TMA focused on form and kata, krav maga was actually
an accumulation of the deadly and disarming strikes in martial arts.

in fact the one in singapore doesnt look too good to me. (saw it on tv)
its a well known fact that krav maga is being overmarketed.
and while they might teach you some genuine techniques,
i feel that alot of it is just kickboxing.
so why not just name it KICKBOXING! rofl.

if anyone is interested in ufc fighting styles though,
pls refer to my gym above lols.

well theres sth i agree though.
"Those fighters u see on UFC are unlike us…
their lifestyle and their training regime is not something
that we can easily ease ourselves into..
esp if u are a couch potato or a weekend warrior…"

hohoho. crazy training programs.

anyway lastly, i found pics of my instructors
facing each other during some competition. ah how exciting!

bruce with full guard

and whats new.
my fav coach, bruce (hes not teaching anymore =x),
ends up winner by armbar submission!
(think ufc referees haha..)

and lastly, picture perfect.
or i shld say punch perfect. haha.
the red guy is like KO-ed alr.
exciting shit.

emokid.

2007-01-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

well its raining and the midnight blues (or past midnight for that matter)
has struck again.

like the backdrop of rain really makes me sad.
and one of my fav emoo songs, really add to the emoness.
altho its really calming i must say.

Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me

three doors down. away from the sun.

sigh. time to sleep. goodnite to the world.
one last day tomorrow before NS starts.
well, like i have told many ppl.
i dont think i lack anythin in ns.
except someone.

and the cruel world mocks my words.

robert hohoho.

2007-01-09T16:15:00.000+08:00

chanced upon mr robert ho's interesting articles recently.
and im terribly amused by his articles.
basically lot of flawed and unjustifiable claims in them,
however, i guess it would be really good to open up your perception
to the anti-PAP side.

also, its quite amazing how he can pick up details that are non-biased
and can convert them to facts siding him.
as well as nice arguments which are rather hypothetical.

like:

In this year's 2006 General Election, the PAP averaged 66.6% of the votes but in LEE Hsien Loong's very own GRC, he despite his cachet and his Father's dominating presence, got only 66.14%. This despite running against 6 neophyte no-hopers nobody has ever heard of and who the PAP boasted "will lose their deposits"!

"For example, another Ethical example, suppose a murderer murdered a young woman but is severely wounded in the process. He is taken to the hospital and needs a heart transplant to save his life. The only organ avalable is that of his victim. Should he get her heart? We should have a clause that says that those who harmed us should NOT get our organs."

disclaimer: i aint trying to be pro-pap or anti-pap or what.
i just think that these sites will be a good read, esp. for those trying
to beef up on their current affairs.

my favourite quote. read it from somewhere else i think.
martyn see - dissent is not disloyality.

okay shant let my cynicism take the fun out of your reading.
so heres the websites.

http://singaporerebel.blogspot.com/

http://i-came-i-saw-i-solved-it.blogspot.com/

and for the exciting part of the blogs.

http://www.p65.sg (frankly i think this is damn lame)

http://ephraim.blogspot.com (george yeo blogs!)

for views by other authors close to the heartland. these sites are good.

http://youngrepublic.blogspot.com/

http://calibratedcoercion.wordpress.com/

okay enough of local blogs to read about.
dont read xiaxue and museum-of-twits anymore!

(if anyone is interested in more, pls talk to me)

and some really good reads here.

on ST pocket money fund

marriage, sex n morality

hilarous article on homosexuality.

its raining, man

2007-01-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo. firstly, i found some video evidence on my previous post.

click here

aft that u can continue watchign ufc unleashed 2 3 4 5.
yada yada.

wah im pissed off. i blogged summore but somehow.
IT DIN GET REGISTERED. shall try again later.

ok, so basically i said im stuck at home for 2,3 days.
thats abt the time i have to my enlistment
yeap due to unforeseen circumstances =x
yea so get well dear. haha.

my pizzas coming! yay.

continuation: why MMA over TMA.

2007-01-07T03:24:00.000+08:00

for the uninitiated, TMA = traditional martial arts.
MMA = mixed martial arts.

As the name TMA implies, it stands for arts such as

taekwondo
jiujitsu
karate
muay thai
silat
savate
arnis
hapkido
boxing
aikido
(and so on so forth)

however, each art has its limitations.
for example, most arts mentioned above,
with the exclusion of jiujitsu, are stand up striking arts.
taekwondo for example, utilises the legs,
with the arms largely untrained for attack.
as such, their AoE (Area of effect) is between mid range and long range.

another example, boxing would be close range.

so, why mma?
basically mma fighters are trained in arts with vicious, powerful strikes.
some excellent striking arts would be muay thai,
kyoushin karate and lastly, a very new offshoot of karate,
ashihara karate (not sure abt the spelling.)
(and one look would tell you that aikido definitely doesnt fit the bill.
- its too non-violent. oops.)

next, they would train in a ground art, such as jiujitsu (frankly, i havent
heard of another ground art near jiujitsu. just variations of jj.)
and no judo doesnt count.
judo is a sport, not a martial art. yeap.
in fact, judo was an offshoot of jiujitsu which ppl believed was too violent
and dangerous to be in competitions.

anyway beware for some slight biaseness.
(i think taekwondo is damn fei)

so comparing a TMAist to a MMAist, in a fight,
the range of attack would be very limited.

the taekwondo fighter will be taken out by kicks to his thighs and
be taken into close range combat, with the MMAist giving punches
to which, most tkd fighters would b unused to.
(disclaimer: however, i still respect tkd as an art. just look at how the
koreans perform 720 turn kick. its amazing athleticism. however,
we have to question the practicality of tkd as a tool for self def)

if you are fighting a muay thai fighter, obviously the MMAist would
take some damage given muay thai's reputation for its damaging
strikes. however, a mmaist trained in grappling would take the
muay thai fighter to the ground,
rendering him useless and easily submitting him on the ground.

or if u are an MMAist fighting a grappler, you would be able to match
him on the ground.
but he would nt be able to match you standing up. simple as that.

however, MMA is not as easily learnt as jsut learning two arts.
there is much more need to control your opponent, and at the same time,
be able to throw punches.

in many ways, its like a refereed brawl.

ok its damn late alr. i think i shld sleep soon.
cant wait for matt serra vs GSP.

georges st pierre

2007-01-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

hmm i guess its a bit perverse to show this picture
since like a guy shldnt b oogling at other guys hahaha. (dont worry yishan im neither gay nor bi =p)

but hes my idol man. i want his fighting skills and..
of course his hot bod wahhh!

damnit i just made a damn long entry on basic mixed martial arts fighting
and blogger screwed up. oh well. i will redo it quickly this time.

courtesy of wiki:

Mixed martial arts (commonly referred to as MMA) is a combat sport
in which two competitors attempt to achieve dominance over one another
by utilizing a wide variety of permitted martial arts techniques in full contact,
including striking and grappling.

Well-known MMA organizations include the Ultimate Fighting Championship
and PRIDE Fighting Championships.

The techniques utilized in MMA competition generally fall into two categories:

striking techniques (such as kicks, knees and punches) and
grappling techniques (such as clinch holds, pinning holds, submission holds,
sweeps, takedowns and throws).

Some unarmed hand to hand combat techniques are considered illegal,
such as biting, eye-gouging, fish-hooking and small joint manipulation.
Over the last ten years, strikes to the groin have become illegal in all sanctioned
MMA organizations.[citation needed]

The legality of other techniques such as elbows, headbutts and spinal locks vary

for those who think its violent, read below!

While MMA competition is occasionally depicted as brutal by the media,
there has never been a death or crippling injury in a sanctioned MMA event
in North America.

yes that is due to strict refereeing and rules made by fight regulators.
read somewhere that ufc has less injuries than NFL. dig that. its safe!

the left jab

the high roundhouse. notice fighters kick with their shins, which cause more damage.
of course, to do damage with the shin means u gotta take damage with them.
fighters train using a series of ways.
1. in thailand, thai fighters kick bamboo poles thousands of times a day.
2. some fighters kick sandbags filled with rocks.
3. others use a kali stick or sticks made of furniture grade wood and hit their shins.
(thats me!)

the elbow. rather deadly.
if u can do a spinning back elbow, u get extra 30k baht for that knockout in thai fights.
hows that man!

the knee! knocks the wind out of alot of fighters if u hit them in the ribs or the solar plexus.
national geographic fight science recorded a hit frm so
yeap. thats basically striking.

lastly, one of my favourite moves.
the backthrust. deals alot of damage. plus its unexpected.
however, drawback is that ur back is exposed to ur opponent.

now to submission grappling.

first a disclaimer, im nt exactly very trained in grappling so i will first apologise
if there are any mistakes.

the leg bar. usually not done forcefully during training,
for fear of hyperextension of knee.

the arm bar. the leg bar and arm bar are the basic moves.
however, you do not see them in pro-fights (seldom la!) because these
fighters drill so hard to evade these submissions which are sort of 'easy' victories.

the rear naked choke. (RNC - not REALLY NAKED COOK hurhur)
very deadly.
hard to predict when one loses unconsciousness.
and chokes can be classified into two types, blood choke and air choke.

the blood choke goes for the carotid while the air choke blocks the windpipe. yeah.

another of those crazy moves that can cause serious paralysis or even be fatal
the neck crank.
look at the guy in singlet.
his right arm is actually applying pressure on white-shirt-guy's neck and
a sudden movement can severe his cranial joint.

yeap thats all from me today! hope these are beneficial =p

about 4 more days.

2007-01-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

reminiscing about some stuff again. im forever thinking about memories.
afterall i wouldnt say i have any negatives about ns, its just that u learn to treasure
ONLY when you have either lost them or you are just about to lose them. yeap.

printed some photos yesterday.. and i already cherish them alot.
afterall, its my ONLY link to the world (except my hp) during ns.
and more than that, these photos will be my motivation,
pushing me on,
supporting me,
when im down. (which i forsee cos im terribly emo).

yeap. so i was reading through some blog and decided to post these lovely songs.
well, they were never exactly special to me before. but somehow the affinity stood.
and yet we know how it came about.

aslyn - That's When I Love You

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my moind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what

Craig David--Unbelievable

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

Why Don't You Kiss Her--Jesse McCartney

We're the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
But lately somethings changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move
Just a touch and we
Could cross the line
And everytime she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
That she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)
Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside...

continued.. lock*******.

anyway i had quite a sumptuous foodie day yesterday.

went down to daddy's office.
had a nice lunch at pete's place.
some italian resturant at hyatt.
the food is not bad; it was a buffet. heh.

(speaking of which, when i type buffet, i will unknowingly want to type buffett) =p

my dad. he looks gloomy here?

yeap then after that went to meet yishan. haha.
over this few days i sort of completed the collection of meeting-yishan's-close-friends. lol
like met christopher a few times over the past few days and met shauna today.

helped to celebrate germaine's birthday with my pro-espionage skills. hahahaha.

at swensens.

aft which went to ding tai fung for our fav xiao long baos. haha.

okay thats all for today.

and adult fare really kills holy shit.

lost without school

2007-01-03T08:40:00.000+08:00

its 3rd jan and im stoning at home.
why no school im so bored! =P
oh well. the grass is greener on the other side.
when we are in sch we will hope for no sch, and..
when theres no sch, im weirdly hoping for sch.
or just ~~sth~~ someone to keep me company. heh.

to tell you guys the truth. its not why no school..
its why no someone! haha =P

i kp thinking i have like 10 more days (i.e. everyday is first jan)
then i realise.. its 8 more days! omg. haha.

btw for those uninitiated, your author will be going through a..
LIFECHANGING process. one which converts boy to man. yes.

be amazed. and just like the natives across the globe, we do have initiation ceremonies.
that would be. SHAVING our heads and wearing black frame plastik specs.

new layout!

2007-01-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

hellooo ppl! i got a new layout!

spent the whole day doing cos im currently html-illiterate. how sad.

i like this layout alot!

anyway i spent new year out of shingapor!

was at chia soon kelong, which is like opposite tekong. i went with my cousins and since the elder cousin, who was our invite, had his ns friends there, they were kiddin with me to be garang and swim to tekong and report for duty 10 days earlier. those jokers. tsk.

yeap so schs starting tmr (not for me =P) and oh well. everyones going to sch! hahaha :))

and since ys' way of posting abt her hols are so unique.. (she must have posted a few gazillion words since a pic tells a thousand words.)

i shall copy! heh.

for those eventful days in the hols!

and since i got down to creating one for dec hols, i thought one for my odac life would be good =))

cheers to odac batch xxi. for the fun times in 2005 and 2006. i love you all!

not forgetting batch xxii as well. you guys rock! prepare for a gigantic picture! muahahaha!

that picture is damn big and i cant find any server to upload. oh well, so if anyone is interested, just msn me at eddis0n@singnet.com.sg yeap =)) all queries abt odac (especially those who want to join odac) are welcome!

making all these pics really made me nostalgic.

Adventures are where we go together
Reaching for the greatest goals in life
Over highest mountains we will scale
Across widest oceans we will never fail
Marching forward never rest until we have reached our best

odac will always live in our hearts. batch 23 coming in and going strong!

thats all for now. gooddnite everyone =))

10 days report!!

2006-12-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

havent blogged in like 10 days yeap. anyway i dont exactly listen to westlife but since someone sent it to me, im forced to listen to it. heh. kiddin. its qt nice la.

so recap of my past 10 days! has been rather happening actually!

20th dec: my favourite girl touched down ((: from switzerland while i was still snoozing in bed. oh well cant remember much (gettin memory loss lol). all i can remember is that someone has been acting like a pig (jet lag's the excuse) so it means recovering from being air pork i suppose. heh. ok kiddin. yeap.

21st dec: stoned at home i think..

22nd dec: again, my favourite girl came to my house even if its for like 3-4 hours only? yeap but was damn glad cos it was like already more than 2 weeks since i last saw her. yeap.

23rd dec: went out with shifu, klar, weihao blah blah. went settler's to play board games. not as boring as i expected it to be i guess. it was fun! and then weihao shifu n me walked ard orchard. it was mother crowded la! anyway im lazy to elaborate. and as usual im lazy to post pics up so go to klars blog, 24th dec entry to see pics yeah. hahaha.

24th dec: rather exciting day. first up i ran some long route with shifu.. who booked out but was still determined to run. applause! we did a 6-7km route from yishun to khatib mrt before turning at the junction going towards lentor avenue or sth yeap. den turn again onto like sembawang (not too sure) then to khatib camp. and back home. whee ((:

after which i met ys, who was with cherie. the two girls had SINFUL stuff. fried mars bars at chippys. and then basically just followed those two around raffles city, then city link. was stranded outside newurbanmale for like close to 25min? yeah cos something secretive was going on inside b/w the two girls yeah. found out later when ys gave me a cute shirt from there. thanks love! ((: luckily u din pass nic's orange thing to me. muahahaha. (to cherie: i know what it is! you were too obvious! =p)

yeah then the two were damn nice. they followed me to meritus mandarin where i had some family dinner while the two went off to eat den to ys' house for sleepover. unfortunately someone ZSQY and escaped! =p ok kiddin. yeap den aft dinner which was like 10 plus we(cousins n me) walked ard orchard. with some idiots spraying aerosol. stupid shits srsly.

25th dec: stoned at home.. :((

26th dec: i cant remember what i did.. i just rememberd i went out with ys again. haha. hmm.oh wait i remember. basically we wanted to watch some movie but due to some unforeseen circumstances we ended up watchin prison break at my house and then she went home. yeah.

27th dec: stony as usual.

28th dec: damn good day heh. spent the whole day with ys. lalala. watched death note. it was damn good. the show was full of twists.. like in a packet of twisties (lame joke, laugh). yeap then went off to shah's wedding party which was quite cool la.took a whole load of pics, enjoyed myself and it was just good meeting the odacians all over again! yeap. after which i got a lift to yck. yay =))

30th dec: went for some talk to prepare my for bmt. quite cool actually. hu lin asked me along and i learnt much la from this talk. yeap. and met a few new friends and found out alot more stuff regardin army, as in experiences and abit of classified stuff here n there heh. yeap and met ys YET again :)) might seem obsessive but considering that someone was overseas for more than a month this hols, its really very little! HAH!. ok im done.

and erm going overseas tomorrow. to celebrate new year at some malaysian kelong. should be quite a cool experience. dont miss me everyone! back on 1st jan! 10 more days of freedom haha.

havent spent much time with other ppl like shihhaur, km, elgin, mike. i think we will get to go out soon right! yeap.

and lastly, shall leave u with some rather exciting convos lols.

1) me n lainey

lainey: i saw ugly doll soft toys! DAMN CUTE!!

me: really.. like u? (was referrin to the ugly haha)

lainey: aw. the cute part ya. the ugly part mebbe not.

me: ok thats going on my blog!

(aft some more crap..)

lainey: post la post la. mus let the whole world noe how cute i am!

2) with marie the NOOB.

(after some exchange of words, i was insulting her)

marie: next time i see you ...i'll STOMP on you

me: try me.. ill bite u then =D

marie: i stomp on you before you even attempt to bite me

me: i will biteu aft u stomp on me.. heh =) bite your leg off!

marie: noooooooooo.. you be unable to move.. i'm too powerful ^^

me: OKAY. YOU WIN.

marie: *happy dance* whee i'm SUPER DUPER powerful.. fear me!

me: ok i fear you.

marie: thankyou thankyou you may kiss my toes. i am mighty

me: ok i bite ur toes

marie: !! no biting its painful..

me: ok i swallow

marie: o_o if u bite at least i MIGHT still have toes .. if you swallow their GONE

yeah done. shows their level of retardness. exciting! =p